C'est la vie

C'est la vie

Monday, January 25, 2010

I Am What I Am - An Ode to the End

10 days.

The last 10 days of the decade.
The last 10 days of the IIT dream.
Its over.

Over.

4 years past, who am i?

I am Babban.
I etched your lyrics on my arm, the arm that punched you.
How can you judge me, who are you to tell me what to do...
I drink, I smoke, I sleep, I fail, I fuck chicks for 7 hours straight
And I am not hymen coz im not sorely depressed... yet.
I am what I am.
Whorer of bass, banbanator of chicks, and not entirely gay.
And I don't need you to save me.

I am Hilani.
I was the first to find you, and the yet the one you bemoan.
Keep your petty grievances to yourself, lest i unleash my own...
I drink, but might not have with you, I smile, with or perhaps at you...
I wrestle, because I like to be tested, I sleep early, I prefer to have rested...
I remembered your birthday, did you remember mine?
I am what I am.
Forever 12 year old, smiler extraordinaire, and... I have wings.
And you don't have the balls to hate me.

I am Gosavi.
Dont waste your fire on me, you have no anger to feed it.
I never asked for your bother, but not because I did not need it.
I talk to myself, I cant tell you what I say,
I'l get you your weed even if you cant pay
I'l stay up with you to drink 12 pegs all night.
Or day.
I am what I am.
StreetHustler, Misspeller...
Casual Sex Scorer, the Designated Pourer.
Fear me, because you can never understand me.

I am Laud.
Im not drowning again, I never will be.
Its cool that you were there, but I would have been fine,
I know you make fun of me, and that town of mine,
I run away, I sleep all day, I will always have brothers and others in our way
and yet you cannot find me at fault, speaks more of you than it does of me
I am what I am.
Puker, fsae-geeker, Dont-Mind-Getting-Really-Beat er.
And one day you will know me without Kota.

I am Hymen
I was there... when we started out.
When we dreamt around, created and found.
I was there, when hope died, when the metal arrived,
when we could see the whole city at first light.
I crash and burn, I twist, I turn, I turn my back on the world and run
Check this post once a year coz I'm not done, I'm not done.
I am what I am.
Hopelessly romantic, sufficiently pedantic, break the champagne, it'l bring out my antics.
I'm still here and I dont need you to come back for me.

I am IIT.
Creator of dreams, destroyer of destinies
"how can one little place, swallow so many lives"
what you have that you could never see
what could have been, but shall never be
the band that conquered the world, the gods of the empire
the blog that makes you rich, the goa highway through the nagpur ditch
The circle of life, the circle of dreams, circles of possibilities in an endless stream
I am what I am.
I will give you everything you want and in return I will take your soul
and in its place you'l have just a big black hole
and when the hole finally starts to ache...

well... you'll be back.